turn the phone off for a little while hon. I know exactly what that is like. When my husband drinks (which he is working on now finally), his deal is verbal abuse, which to me I'd rather you slap me. so I know how that feels. You're too good for that and you're a GREAT mom to a fantastic little boy. you've got a lot on your shoulders now and I'll say a prayer for you; Try to find a few minutes today to do a little summin summin just for you, even if it's read a book or take a bath. You need to decompress. And the problem lies with HIM, not you. Just remember that. {{{BIG HUGS}}}