I am so heartbroken

Wendy, my heart is breaking for you and your family. I am so sorry about your fur baby. You and your family are in my thoughts.
 
Oh Wendy, I'm crying, I'm just so sorry for you and your family and this lovely kitten... I miss words, it remind me losing our dog few monthes ago (nothing to do with your lovely kitten, he was hit by a car at 5 years old but it's so difficult and hard and kids still asking when he is going to come back...) Awful time.
I was so happy for all of you, reading your post is terrible!
You shouldn't feel guilty, you can't guess she was ill and at least maybe it was her destiny to be with you all for this terrible time.
I send you all my prayers and lot's of love. I know how it is difficult but since she was so much wait in your family, it's heart breaking!
I wish you lots of courage too!
 
This was supposed to be her first of many play pages that I started scrapping last Tuesday. I was distracted with her, my husband that I didn't get back to it until Saturday after we went to the vet. By that time, I didn't want to scrap a life layout that I knew this was going to be both her life/death layout. I finished it today, after we said our final goodbye to our precious kitten. It was the hardest thing to see, my children suffering.



I tried to post the journaling, but the gallery won't let me post it. So here it is if you want to read it:
How do I tell this story, the life of Ahsoka and how she came to us without ending in tears? A friend of the family had asked if anyone local wanted a pure-bred Bengal kitten that wasn’t adjusting well to her home. Mama knew that Bengal cats were hypoallergenic and asked this friend if she would consider our family for rehoming. On May 13, we went and visited this beautiful and precious kitten. It was love at first sight. Daddy told our friend that we wanted to take her home that day, and we did! As soon as we came home, the kids quickly decided on a name for our new kitty, which was just a trialun to make sure Madalyn didn’t have any allergic reactions. They decided on a name as Ahsoka fell asleep on Mama and Daddy’s bed for the night. The following days, Mama joined a few Bengal Facebook Groups and realized our kitten was nothing like the kittens in that group. She expressed her concerns, but they were dismissed. By Friday of that week, Daddy agreed that something was wrong with our kitten. She was hardly drinking or eating and spent most of her days sleeping. We took her to the animal hospital, where we were met with our friend. We never imagined the news we would get from the vet. She thought she had feline infectious peritonitis (fip) which is fatal. We did the necessary tests and waited for the results. But in the meantime we gave her medicine and things that might make her feel better. After a few days, the vet called with the devastating news, confirming fip. It was decided that should the test results be positive, we would do the humane thing and put Ahsoka down. On Thursday, May 17, less than two weeks, our family met with the previous family at the vet and said our good byes to the best cat our family could ever have been blessed. Ahsoka was cremated and the ashes were given to the previous owners, and our family received ornamental paw prints for each of the children to honor their first kitten. Ahsoka might have only been part of the family for a short time frame, but she taught us so much about ourselves and loving an animal so quickly and completely
 
I'm so sorry, Wendy. This isn't the way I was hoping the story would end. My heart goes out to you.
 
I just second Tammy, I was hoping for another end, maybe miraculous...
I'm so sorry for your loss and wish you all the courage you need.
I feel very sad for both of you and send you lot's of prayers and love to all of you!
 
Its been a few days. On Friday, one of our friends offered to take my youngest to the bounce park for two hours. She ended up keeping him from 10 until 5pm. When she brought him home, he searched the house and cried when he couldn't find his kitty. It was sad. But he's getting over it and not crying nearly as much.

The oldest went to school on Friday. Refused to talk to me. Sometime around Saturday afternoon she started talking to me and by Sunday she talked to me about the cat. She's really sad. Trying to hold it all in and "suck it up", but I know she's hurting.

The middle, she stayed home on Friday because she was in my bed until 2am crying. I finally got her calmed down and she fell asleep around 3:30. When she woke up to go to school, she kept breaking down and sobbing. We decided it best to keep her home so she wasn't a distraction to the other students and they didn't have to deal with her. Instead she helped with the yard sale and then after the yard sale, she helped me destroy all of Ahsoka's toys, cat litters and scratching post. She sobbed while we broke it down, but I think it was good for her. Saturday she cried a little. But by Sunday she was able to talk with little tears.

I think slowly we are all starting to get over the loss of the kitten. Now we clean and sterilize the house of the virus so if another kitten comes in to the home, they won't be exposed to it. After a month or so, we can think about getting a new kitten. But I'm not sure if we will do that or wait until we find out what's going on for next May (my husband will have to re-enlist and will probably come down on orders to move). Either way, it'll be a hot minute before we get a new kitty in the house, but we will eventually. Ahsoka showed us how much we could love a kitten and it's something we want to do again!

Thank you all for the prayers and the support. It's been an emotional week and weekend. But I told my girls this week is the LAST week of school and it's going to be a good week. We'll try to stay positive this week, while keeping her memory alive in our hearts! :wub:
 
My heart breaks for ya'll. :(
Hopefully you will find the perfect kitten to add to your family when the time is right.
 
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