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Identity Crisis

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For the Summer Games Diving challenge.
Inward, Twisting, Back, Forward

Journaling:
"A few years ago, I experienced something that rocked me to my core. My entire identity was gone and I discovered I was lost and had no idea who I was. My sense of purpose had disappeared. Everything I based my identity on had changed and I was left questioning...Why am I here? What is my purpose? Am I a good person? Am I selfish? Do I need to change? WHO AM I? To say that I have done a lot of soul searching the last couple of years is a major understatment. I have basically lived in my own head trying to find the answers to these questions. Trying to figure out why I’ve made some of the poor choices I’ve made and being honest with myself about parts of me that I don’t like & how to fix them. I have struggled with self-doubt, guilt, self-loathing, sadness and depression. At times I just wanted to quit. To throw my hands up and say, “you win”. Thank God I have two little people who depend on me, because there were days when my responsibility to them was the only thing that got me out of bed. Through it all though, I have confronted some of my demons & fears and learned that, even though I have made mistakes, it doesn’t mean I am a bad person and that my past does not have to determine my future. I am not perfect. I am not a perfect wife, friend, sister, daughter or mom, but as long as I continue to better myself, and strive to be someone I can be proud of, I am on the right path. I am a work in progress and even at 40, I am still learning about myself- I am still growing into the person I was meant to be. I can honestly say, though, that having fought through the last few years and come out on the other side, I am stronger, more thankful and more sure of who I am and what I want than I have ever been. Life is beautiful, when you choose to find the beauty in it!"

~Credits~
One of a Kind kit by Meg Mullens and Captivating Visions
Made of Glass kit by Crystal Hartley and Meg Mullens
A Quiver of Arrows by Julie Billingsley (new this week)
Brushed 1 by Penny Springman
Gralpha by Brigit
Alpha Bits by Christina Renee
Font is DJB All the Cool Chicks
I could have written that word for word. My world flipped upside down in 2006, and I continued to spiral down, until I hit rock bottom a few years later. I have just started my third year of this process of redefining myself, learning about ME, etc. And even though the dark has been really dark, the good/happy/joyful times are that much more awesome.
 
Man! I can relate! I lived the last two years almost in a haze...I'm so glad I had my kids and my amazing husband to fall back on and pull me back into reality! I love your journaling-so real...great challenge LO, ty for playing along with us!
 
This is incredible. Your journalling is so powerful and inspirational too. Good on you for everything you are doing and for seeking the beauty amongst the thorns.
 
This is really a powerful page. Love your clustering and that you slightly blurred the photo - such a perfect match to the subject.
 
Awesome Laura... I had thought about creating a page of my experience when you were really there for me, but I ran out of time (and nerve.... lol!)
 

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