I love your honesty in this layout and the fact that you realise no-one expects what you do from you! A lot of us are guilty of adding these pressures to ourselves. I had to have a major op 3 years ago and after that and all the things I went through it made me realise that I should enjoy the moments more and worry less about what I should be doing or be better at and now I feel like I live with less stress. I don't know if this is helpful, but I wanted you to know you aren't alone - especially right now. AND I actually came because your layout just jumped out of the gallery at me, I love the wonderful cluster and the peek of paint behind your doily. The colours are wonderful together.
I can so relate to your journal! I feel like I'm exactly the same. I sometimes even get frustrated with myself and the way that I am, the person that I am.
That being said, I think you are a beautiful woman on the inside and out, and eventhough I don't know you in person I think you're a great mom!
I love how you scrapped the photo. Your clusters and shadowd are as beautiful as always. Darling layout!