Journaling:
This will be the question I will be asking myself for a long time. If we had known sooner would there have been anything we could have done to prevent this? Anything to make your life longer or better? The first time we heard that you might have cancer we were really hoping that everything would turn out ok and that the vet was wrong. When the phone call came today that you had cancer and it was spreading rapidly my heart broke into a million pieces. You and Bailey are our kids, you were our babies before we had Austin and always will be. You are such a great dog and I don’t understand why this is happening to you. We couldn’t ask for a better dog. I am already feeling so guilty for ever yelling at you for chewing on shoes or toys and for getting into things that you weren’t supposed to. I can’t imagine a day without you greeting us at the door or feeling you lay beside me in bed. Seeing your face just makes my heart ache. You are such a beautiful dog, why did this have to happen to you? What will Bailey do without her sister to play with? What will Austin do when he finds out that he will lose what he calls his sister? How will we tell him what is going on? So many questions are going through my mind as I’m sure you don’t understand what’s going on either. I feel helpless in this whole thing, like there is nothing I can do for you. I don’t know how we will ever be able to make the decision that will have to be made. Can I be selfish and keep you here with us as long as we can or can we be brave and strong for you and do what is best. I know what we will have to do, but I know it will not be an easy decision to make and I wish we didn’t have to. I know there is probably nothing else we could do for you, but I will always wonder if we could have caught it sooner would there have been anything we could have done? I know in my heart that we have given you the best life that you could have ever had, but still will continue to ask myself...what if we had known sooner?
Credits:
Zoe Pearn: Funky Valentine and CYO Pencil alpha at sweetshoppedesigns.com
Zoe Pearn: Fuzzy Knitted alpha at scrapartist.com
Kay Miller: Puppy Love from DAM Feb 08 at sweetshoppedesigns.com
Robin Carlton: dressed up dots and doo dots at sweetshoppedesigns.com
Fee Jardine: flutterbies alpha at sweetshoppedesigns.com
Natalie Braxton: string a lings at the-lilypad.com
Kate Hadfield: hand sewn stitches at the-lilypad.com
Traci Murphy: various drop shadows at funkyplaygrounddesigns.com
