{{hugs}} I hope you find that missing piece to make you happy! Beautifully scrapped page, as always! love the light/dark of the split design and the cut out hearts... truly a stunning page!
Your design is just awesome, and I wish that we could sit {at my house} and have coffee {so we didn't freak people out crying and hugging in a coffeeshop} and talk through those things. I know that blackness and how sometimes you can't even breathe, and it gets better, or at least I know it can, and I hope that you'll get there soon.