It must be hard to have these thoughts and fight the urge. And yes, to me you are a survivor. By creating this page and putting it out there in the open, you are getting there.
Thanks for participating in this challenge.
Thank you so much for sharing sweety! This was definitely hard for you. I believe whole-heartedly that you are a survivor. You are strong for your child. Hats off to you for sharing this pain with us!! HUGS!!!