Journaling:
So for as long as I can remember I have been very afraid of needles. To get shots or blood work done as a child me mother had to bribe me. As an adult, I have come to terms with it and just get it over with. Its not the whole process that gets me now, its just that initial stick. Once thats done I am ok and can even watch the process. But, sometimes lifes just not fair.
After testing to check my thryroid and medication
to help with it, I was still feeling really tired
and had no energy to do anything. Getting on the couch after work and falling sleep at 6, waking up for a few hours, sleeping all night and waking up still exhuasted. So back to the doctor. After yet more blood work to test my B12 levels we found
the problem. I have prenicious anemia. My body doesn’t absorb the B12 that is needs and my levels are EXTEMELY low. 194 when they should be about 1200. Problem sloved.
So the day I go in to talk about it problem I had a inkling that shots would be involved. I was thinking ok a shot a week myabe and I would just have to go and get them. NOOOOO I have to have a shot not once a week but every 3-5 days. And I don’t get to go in and have it done, I get the honor of doing this myself. I wasn’t at all sure about this but I knew that unless I wanted to continue feeling useless I had to. The first time was the hardest but I made it and didn’t have to have anyone in the family do it for me. Big Step!
So now its been almost a year of this and believe it or not I think that is has helped with the needle fears. Don’t get me wrong, I HATE the idea that is is even necessary but now I can get on with life and do things I need and want to do. But I tell you sometimes...
Kits:
Being Fresh by Eva Kipler
Lullabee by Carlton Bean
Doctor Doctor by Lauren Grier and Melissa Bennett
