It's Starting To Hit Me...

LeeAndra

LeeAndra

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It's starting to hit me...

I went to the doctor again Friday. Although there are a lot of things wrong with me (bladder infection, gland cyst, anemia, etc.), the baby is just fine. We listened to the heartbeat, and the doctor was able to tell just by feeling my abdomen the baby's position inside of me. At my next appt in a couple weeks, they'll do another sonogram & we'll be able to see who Peanut is as long as s/he cooperates.

And it's really starting to hit me now... I'M GOING TO BE A MOM! I'M ALREADY A MOM! WHOA!!

I've spent the last 8 years being 'just the stepmom' in 2 different relationships. I've spent the last 6 years watching all of you scrap your babies and feeling like I didn't quite belong to the cool kids' club yet. I've spent my whole life wanting to be a mom, but having only the faintest inkling of when or how that was going to be.

AND NOW IT IS! IT'S BEING!!

It's not that I thought something bad was going to happen or that there would be something wrong with the baby. It's not that I wanted something bad to happen, either. It's just now that the time is finally HERE, I still can't quite believe my biggest dream in life is coming TRUE, kwim?

Not that it's been 'easy,' but on the other hand, is it really this easy? Can it really just be I hold on and get sick and try to function for 9 months, and then I get a baby at the end? Shouldn't there be some kind of test God would want me to take? An essay to write? An required internship? I just serve my time and wait, and then I'm on my own?

I'M GOING TO BE SOMEONE'S MOM FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. FOR THE REST OF HIS/HER LIFE. FOR THE REST OF LIFE AS WE KNOW IT.

It's starting to hit me...
 
awwwwwwww hugs!!!

It happened to me like that when I was pregnant with lily and lucas. i remember certain parts of my pregnancy where its the strangest thing.. like "i'm going to have a baby. wow"

I remember when I was pregnant with lily how I never really thought about it before, about having a living baby inside of you. you know?

I'm so glad you are getting your dream!
 
HA! I can so relate. I was actually on my way to the hospital to GIVE BIRTH when it hit me. I mean, I knew it all along and was preparing and everything, but my "WHOA!" moment came just hours before she was born.

Oh and THEN, the first time I called the pediatrician to make an appt for her, and I said, "I need to schedule an appointment for my daughter..." My DAUGHTER!?!?! That sounded like a foreign language.

I'm so happy for you!! It's truly an amazing ride. :)
 
It's the best feeling and job in the world!! Congrats LeeAndra.. continue to enjoy every single moment!
 
YAY! I am so so happy for you LA!! You're going to be an amazing mommy and I'm so glad you're realizing your dream!! (((hugs))) It truly is a wonderful, life changing, miraculous gift!! :wub:
 
I'm grinning ear-to-ear at your post...it's such an awe-inspiring realization. Just wait until the first time you go out in public and YOU are one of those women with the newbie all cuddled in the baby carrier, and everyone is looking and saying AWWWWW. Nothing like that...you'll know a pride, joy, & love that you've never felt before. And I'll admit for me I also felt fear I'd never felt...well, maybe not fear, but supreme protectiveness...the mama bear thing rears its head immediately LOL.
 
You are a great writer! I'm afraid that feeling didn't hit me till like the week I was due, and then I was frantically trying to keep that baby in there till I got all that squared away in my mind, lol.

And yes, it's going to be great, but it's going to suck the life out of you, too. You should be warned.
 
I remember like Libby, too, the first time I made an appointment for my son. It was so weird, like my son? Wow. Its a pretty awe inspiring experience all along. Congrats!
 
Just wait until you hold him/her for the first time. That is when it really hit me with my first son. I was scared to hold him and then I realized wait a minute he is mine good Luck hun.
 
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Awwww! I love your post... it truly is a remarkable experience! I'm so excited for you!

I still wonder sometimes what I ever did to earn the blessing of becoming the mommy of such and amazing, sweet spirit. :wub:
 
Enjoy the journey...I am still mourning the fact that I am not going to experience it again. It really is amazing.
 
I'm so excited for you LeeAndra :) Enjoy the amazing journey you're on!!

And...yes....a smidge jealous. But in the best way possible! I know my time will come eventually, lol.
 
Big hugs LeeAndra! It's the most irritating, rewarding, stimulating, frustrating job in the world - but it's the best one too!! You'll be a great mom!
 
Reading your post....sitting here with a 5 day old sleeping babe on my chest...typing with one hand...I can honestly tell you, there is NOTHING like the feelings I've been blessed to experience since she entered the world. I'm so excited for you to feel this way. :)

My WHOA! moment was last Friday, 5 days before Ella arrived...doctor thought I would have her a little early. Sent this to my sis- "Oh. my. gosh. We're actually having a baby. ACK!! LOL :) Maybe you should come raise her for the first few weeks at least, there's no way I'm qualified to be responsible for a human life, right? What were we thinking....". Looking at her right now...I have my answer.

Hope you enjoy this crazy ride!!
T.
 
Here's a thought for you... the day before I was scheduled to have my first daughter (scheduled c-section, I worked until the day before) a lady told me, "Today is the last day of your ENTIRE LIFE that you won't be someone's mother."

Holy cr*p lady, way to scare a person! LOL! So... there is my little bit of wisdom for ya!
 
lovely1m said:
I remember like Libby, too, the first time I made an appointment for my son. It was so weird, like my son? Wow. Its a pretty awe inspiring experience all along. Congrats!
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that's me too - 'uh?! did i just say my daughter?!" and then i had the same moment with DS about 2 mths ago. The sonogram was my first wow moment though with both DD and DS, before that i just hated everyone and everything cos i had my head in the toilet or a bucket 24/7. Glad so far u've been good!

Oh yep and like Teresa mentioned, get used to typing one-handed!
 
yay!!!!!!!!!!!! My ah-ha moment was like a week before she was born. I turned to my mom and was like.. mom.. there's a PERSON inside me. She's like.. um... yes.. what did you think it was?? I think she was ready to have my head examined. :blink:
 
Aww La congrats sweety, for what its worth Im on baby 4 and stil lhave those WHOA moments then again 4 kids running around maybe I should LOL, love what you wrote. Your post is touching!
 
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