This has been a very difficult year for us, too. I'm wondering if it's years ending in "8" because 2008 was probably our worst year ever. (I can't remember much of 1998) LOL!
I'm praying that 2019 brings breakthroughs. I've been thinking through my OLW for 2019, and I'm considering something like "malleable" or "limber" because maybe I just need to be able to roll with things better.