I knew I was going to have to make this one simple otherwise I was going to start crying, which I did anyway. Whaaa!
[b]Pieces of You by Shawna Clingerman and Micheline Martin
Paintbox Brush by Fee Jardine[/b]
[i]When I would hear moms talk about
how their boys no longer want to
kiss or hug on them anymore, I honestly
never thought that MY son would turn
out to be one of them. Oh, man, it
hurts so much. I absolutely am NOT
putting any blame on him. He’s doing
what is natural for a boy... pulling
away from mom and bonding with
dad, but it really does not make it
easier for me. When I remember him
as a clingy Velcro toddler, I feel a
sinking in my heart. He used to hold
my cheeks in his chubby hands and
tell me that I was beautiful and call
me his ‘sweet momma’. He would
hang onto my neck at bedtime and
say, “I’ll never let you go.” Oh man,
this kid was so loving and huggy
and kissy. I know that he loves me,
and that he needs me (sometimes?)
but seeing faces like this, the face that
says he has definitely out-grown the
‘mommy phase’ hurts so much.
I have to remind myself that this is
actually a good thing. It means that
he’s well-adjusted and progressing
normally and is confident enough
to be self-dependent. Those are the
feelings that I have to concentrate
on these days, otherwise I just
crumble every time he leaves for
school without even waving good-
bye.
I love being this boy's mom so much.[/i]
