Bad Day Blues-Kristin Cronin-Barrow
Journalling:
Since I had the kids I've had a little extra weight on me. I know this. I have mirrors and I don't need it pointed out to me & it is not because I eat all the time I eat very little most days but that doesn't stop my family from making jokes or little comments. It is bad enough when it comes from my husband's family but my sister's making comments about how big I am and how I would look so much better if I was to lose all this extra weight. I am ONLY 25 pounds over the ideal weight for my height though. That's the really bad part about it. I would understand if I was extremely overweight because then it would be about my health and not just the way I look. There are so many instances I can think of where they've made a joke where they thought they were being really funny but instead ended up really hurting my feelings. One of these times we were going to my mother and father-in-law's for Easter supper. I had just opened the door and my brother-in-law Robby yelled "Quick everybody hide all the food, Jessica is here!!" I heard him say it clear as day and all I could do was turn around and walk out because I could not stop the tears from coming. I hate for people to see me crying especially my husband's family because then they call me cry-baby and tell me "Oh we were just joking. Can't you take a joke?" Well all I can say is a joke is supposed to make you laugh and if the joke is at someone else's expense and it makes that person cry why would you think it is ok to say? Then that day to make matters worse my husband did not even stick up for me. He said I was being too sensitive and I shouldn't let it get to me. I guess he was partially right but it would be nice to not be the subject of all the families little jokes. I know I would not make those sort of jokes about any of my family members even though some of them are far more overweight then I ever have been. So I have found that I should just avoid them to avoid being picked on. Probably for the best anyhow.
