I've been having a real hard time recently dealing with my Dads death from this summer. A lot of people are telling me it isn't just his death, but several traumatic losses in my life that I never properly dealt with, let myself feel, or grieve in anyway. I just bottled it up and hid it inside. So I let it out. I know the page looks simple, but I literally cried and poured my soul into for days. All the little journaling spots around the "scarred" heart read
1989-1992 Being molested repeatedly as a child!
1990 Grandpa’s accidental lethal injection during routine surgery...Stupid Nurse!
1994 The beggining of a self destructive marriage!
1995 Gradma’s sudden death. Kylie was born weeks later!
1995 Ruptured tubal pregnancy!
1996 Emotional tolls ofa tramatic delivery and life in the NICU!
1998 Losing Kylie & Jordan. God I miss my babies!
Being weak and fearful in the presence of Lane! (my ex-husband)
2003 my biological father thinking he has a right to me after 27 years!
Years of Hospice work has taken it’s toll!
2007 Dads death...due to the doctor prescribing a dose 3 times too high of a med!
Most of you all don't know that at one point I had two other kids. I did grieve that loss for a long time, still do. I think it was one of the only events I actually let myself feel and it truly overwhelmed me for years. I was non-functional. The most recent hurt/scar, for some reason, I don't know why I chose to do in red. maybe because it is so new and so raw?
Lyrics are Papa Roach Scars. Papers are [url=
https://www.sweetshoppedesigns.com/shoppe/index.php?main_page=product_info&products_id=1654]Penny Springman's Thankful[/url]. Painted stamps by Michelle Coleman. Fonts are SP wonderful Wendy, Inkburrow & Satisfaction. Special thanks to Mirado for letting me use his heart photo.
