Sugar Free Challenge: Mar 28th 2007
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Thursday May 20th 2004 we were sitting on your porch having a smoke and Kai was running around on the lawn with his Dad. All of a sudden he started running in and out of the house. I started getting irratidated by this and suddenly I screamed out at him {kai}. His father then said something and with my frustration building with him I screamed out. Well I dont want to be here!
How can I say that with my Mom sitting right beside me....I did want to be there but with my 2 year old running around and my Mom's oxygen tubing all over the floor so she can walk around and not have to drag the oxygen tank with her. Worried that Kai would trip over it and either pull it out of my Mom's nose or out of the tank itself. With my Mom in her fragile state I just could not think what would happen if the oxygen tank got broken or the tubing cracked etc.
After my little "tantrum" my Mom breaks down in tears and starts talking about how my Dad has loved her, cherished her and how much he has taken care of her over the last year or so of her being sick. I started to cry and said I"M SORRY a few times and hugged her. All was ok!
Was it!
3 days later at 10:15 am my Mom passes away. Did she give up because of what I said, How did that statement make her feel, like a burden on our lives cause we have to be so careful with her & take care of her.
All these thoughts running through my head...Never to be answered...Never to be resolved...Just so full of
REGRET!!!
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Jennifer Barrette Cardboard Photo Cluster 1
For Miles Kit By Jessica Bolton & Her Team
Breakdown:
jbolt_tinydot
jbolt_xstitch
svand_sequin04,05,06
svand_orange_numb
amyknepper_formiles-bead1,2,3
amyknepper_formiles-twine2
amyknepper_formiles-sticker1
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Pea Girly Girls Script
Pea Glo-Girl Script
Pea Missy Cursive
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TFL!
