Wow! This was a very hard layout for me to do. My layout is about my miscarriage last year. TFL!
Journaling reads: I was pregnant?!?! Again? So quickly? Patty was only a year old. How could I be pregnant? How would I handle two kids so quickly together? “NO! NOT YET!” I shout into the air. I call my best friend, Laurie and between the sobs I tell her of my news. “I don’t think I can handle it.” I tell her. She tells me that she knows I can handle it and given time I will be happy to be pregnant. I call Ashley on the phone. I have now composed myself and tell him the news. He is elated. Fast forward 3 weeks. It is now January of 2007. I am finally happy about being pregnant, when BAM! the cramps start, and then comes the bleeding. I had no clue what was going on. I called my Obstetrician. Sure enough, he said the dreaded words “You are losing your baby” WHAT?!?!? How could that be? Not to me. I plead with the Lord in my heart to make it okay, all the while knowing that I was losing my baby. My husband and I shared a long night together, neither of us sleeping. To this day, and probably for the rest of my life, in the back of my head I will hear a little voice saying “it’s your fault, you didn’t want the baby”. And, maybe that’s true. And while I still lost my baby, the Lord has given me the peace and knowledge that everything will be okay.
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