Oh, man, I feel ya! You've captured your feelings so well in your journaling and paired it so well with such great clustering (and the cutest little hedgehog.)
I'm so sorry to read you're feeling like this. I hope things get better for you soon and you'll find some energy to accomplish things on your list and play with your kids. You scrapped the story beautifully though. I love your clusteres and how you used Erica's kit.