Aug. 12th Sugar Free Challenge
Credits:
Kit by MCato-rocky shores
Alpha by: mira - Spring Melody and ZPearn - Old School
Journaling says:
I have been fighting against my emotions for years now concerning my relationship with my Mother. My Mother suffers from manic depression and anxiety disorder. This really has been going on with her probably since before I can remember. But for me it all started in 1995. It?s a constant battle with trying to make her happy and trying to be happy myself. Nothing I do is ever good enough or right in her eyes, I could become the 1st woman president of the United States and she would find something that would be disappointing to her about it. For all of my accomplishments in my life she has only been jealous and upset that my family is doing well. It?s heart breaking to me. Parents should want better for their children and be so proud of them when they do well....It?s never been like that for me. My last strand of hope to salvage some type of relationship with my Mom broke last August. My Father was in a horrible car accident could have died (he wasn?t wearing his seatbelt) ended up spending a week in ICU with a lacerated spleen, broken wrist, broken hip, broken ankle, three broken ribs and head trauma. My Mom called me to let me know what had happened and totally went nuts. She told me how everything was my Fathers fault and how she could careless whether he was alive or dead. I couldn?t believe it! I was totally devastated. How could my own Mother say such horrible things about the man she supposedly loved!? Needless to say I started therapy, I am working though a lot of issues I have with my parents and discovering a lot about myself in the process. This is something I will be working on for many years to come but I am so glad I made the decision to go and get some help it has really helped so much.
