June #31 (Book Of Me)
Tracy Reed: Just Dreamy
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Journaling: There are definitely a few choices in life that require thorough thinking. If given the opportunity I might change a few of mine or at least wish I would have thought about before making the decision. I believe that everything happens for a reason & we can’t go back to rewrite the past, it’s gone & the choices we made during that point in life, we must accept now. I would never change where I am in my life, because it’s exactly what God had planned for me, but sometimes it’s a brain escape to wonder what if.
What if I had chosen to believe in myself sooner; to see that beauty is more than just skin deep? What if I had decided that my education was worth the extra effort? What if I kept in touch with those friends, true friends, I had made in school? What if I didn’t sell my horse, where would we be today; how awesome would she have been? What if I hadn’t quit my job at the bank; would we be better off now, or in the same place? What if I had chosen to speak up for what I wanted & not let others push me around? What if I had learned early how to be healthier; would it have been such a struggle to love exercising & being fit? What if I chose not to accept less from others? What if I had decided earlier that me time is okay?
I’m sure the answers to these things I’ll never know, but I can always adjust & fix my choices for the future. There will always be choices and there will always be what ifs. However, knowing that I am in the exact place that God wants me to be right now is the most comforting answer to all those questionable choices I’ve made so far in this life.
